Date:	2007-07-02 16:54
Subject:	I killed a fly.
Security:	Public
Mood:	weird

There was a fly making noises on my window. I can't stand flies, so I decided to kill it. I went near my window, and waited until it moved to the top of the window. This is where I can place my sandal and kill it. The sandal hits...."WHAM!" The fly is killed and a portion of the glass cracks. My roughly three-week old sandals are big and tall, so it might have contributed to the "catastrophe." My other shoes would never do that.


I was also thinking about that one Christian Dior perfume: J'adore. Shouldn't it be "J'adore...?" I think it's a good idea to put the dots. Isn't "J'adore" like saying "I adore?" That sounds incomplete! You have to adore something.

Or maybe I'm wrong. Maybe some people were right. Maybe "J'adore" by itself might mean "I adore you." If the latter part is true, then my thoughts were ridiculous. But then, I thought "I adore you" might be "Je t'adore." Truly, I don't really know. :P The dictionary.com translation said: "Je vous adore," so I might be correct. I can't be certain. Online translations are typically known for their inaccuracy.

Date:	2007-07-02 13:52
Subject:	My Current Interest
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm

Curse my laziness! I've hardly posted good entries to this website.

I'm currently interested in drawing. I want to draw well. I want to draw just like those good traditional and digital painters. I want to know the body--its anatomy and its proportions. I want to know colours--colour theory, bases, highlights, shades. I've been trying to draw at least one thing each day. This started during the cruise. I don't think I drew each day, but I constantly updated the small, red sketchbook.

Today, I also had a dream about being in art class with a previous classmate (one I actually found on the cruise ship). I had to finish a landscape done with acrylics. It looked bad. I was trying to come up with ideas on how to improve it, but it was futile. I was horrible with paints, so any attempt to improve the picture was futile.

FACTS (in paragraphs): I update three personal sketchbooks. Two of them were bought in Borders and the other one was given to me in art class sophomore year. The big, blue one (purchased in August 2006) is the main sketchbook. This is where I usually update simple sketches and ideas while I'm at home or in my grandparents' house. The small, red sketchbook was bought soon after school was done. I wanted to use it while I'm at school, instead of wasting individual sheets of paper. In fact, this is what I also did with my personal journals. I bought a notebook for them. The red sketchbook is also used while I'm outside of my house, being places besides school (e.g. parents' car, a trip, the mall). The Sketch: Papier à croquis sketchbook, the one I received in the Art 2D class, was formerly used for art class. It has a few stupid things in the first 30-40 pages, like figure drawings, a badly drawn skull, and a badly drawn paper bag. When I worked on my last Art 2D assignment (making a painting with acrylic paints), in which I decided to make a portrait of myself, I realised that this good sketch book should be used for portraits. It helps me practise drawing people's faces.

I also own roughly three other sketchbooks that are hardly updated. The first two were bought in the supermarket near my grandparents' house. They basically contain sketches/drawings made from 2004-2006. I personally hate them, since the paper quality is crappy. The last one is the Rembrandt sketchbook. I would rather use that paper for complete traditional drawings or for sketches possibly scanned for digital completion.

With that, I also use Photoshop Elements 4.0 and the Wacom Intuos 3 4x6 for digital sketches. I'm currently using a free trial of Corel Painter X. I hardly know Painter, so it's just used to see how it works. I seriously feel more at home with Photoshop.
/end facts

From Sunday (24 June) to Friday (29 June), I stayed at my grandparents' house. Throughout the weekdays, I was constantly drawing at least one stupid thing, like a car or an eye. Before that, I filled up seven pages before and during the cruise trip.

This is the first time I filled up roughly ten pages of a sketchbook in less than a month. It makes sense, since the cruise trip encouraged me to occasionally take the sketchbook to the restaurant and the pool/jacuzzi/basically relax area. I took it while my 15-year old cousin and her friends were in the jacuzzi. I took it when my aunt relaxed with her friends. I even took it one night, when we ate dinner.


Haha...this was when I tried to teach my ten-year old cousin how to draw eyes and lips. I drew the eye in the middle (near the middle, actually), while the rest was either her attempt to draw an eye or the criticism of the typical ten-year old's eyes/mouth/lips. My cousin mentioned how her peers are not very good at drawing those things. She used the funny demonstrations to show that. It doesn't surprise me; they're only kids. Drawing good and accurate portraits and drawings at that age is usually the result of a child prodigy or a kid taught by good teachers.

I remember when our two waiters found the two of us with my sketchbook. Both of them said I was good. I guess anyone can compliment me, not just family and friends. Now I see the scan, and I realise that my eye is not the greatest thing in the world. Well, at least it's much better than the eyes I drew months ago.

I talk about these things, and I hardly post pictures! I should post more picture on some websites. I know I'm quite lazy, but at least I have sketches.

Date:	2007-06-25 16:55
Subject:	Back home
Security:	Public
Mood:	weird
Music:	iPod

I haven't updated in a while, due to laziness. I was also gone for about a week. I went on a Royal Caribbean cruise from 18 June to 24 June with my cousin (preppsterr), her family and some friends. The ship was called Freedom of the Seas. It was supposed to take us to Puerto Rico, St. Thomas and Sint Maarten.

A bad thing happened. This 24-year old guy got drunk and fell off the ship. They spent the whole day searching for him on Monday. I thought it was slightly foolish, since he was most likely dead. When you unconsciously land on deep water, you will die. I do feel sorry for the family. If they really loved him, they must be really sad for his loss.

Because of that, we didn't go to St. Thomas. Oh well! We were at sea on Monday and Tuesday. We went to Puerto Rico on Wednesday. Puerto Rico was fine. We passed by the viejo San Juan and the United States' only rain forest. We also ate a few times--at two different restaurants. I only got one souvenir, a "Puerto Rico" t-shirt. That's quite sad, because my mother wanted a coqui frog souvenir. At least I plan to make a coqui drawing just for her. I need to make up for the lack of souvenirs.

On Thursday, we reached Sint Maarten/St. Martin, Netherlands Antilles. It was shocking to find that I had more fun here than in Puerto Rico. Everyone was dying to see Puerto Rico. We saw the whole island with the ATVs we rented. The island had the Dutch side and the French side. The Dutch side had English signs. Very few people actually speak Dutch and English is supposedly a lingua franca. I guess this is one of the reasons why the Netherlands Antilles had many English-speaking natives. The French side was great too. This place actually had signs in a foreign language--French. Unfortunately, I couldn't understand many words. At least I could comprehend college, musée, and metre, and hôpital. I learned them in school, along with verbs, conjugations, etc. I didn't get many souvernirs here, except for jewellery. I know it sounds superficial, but they looked really nice. I hardly get this kind of thing anyway. I owed my aunt money, but she then refused to take it. Damn! Courtesy is good, but I don't mind giving money I owe.

We were then at sea on Friday and Saturday. I came back home on Sunday. The ship was great. It did feel like a house and a city.

It's great to be back. With this, I might update another journal. The good and bad times are worth noting.

Date:	2007-06-04 12:31
Subject:	FAKE OR NOT FAKE?
Security:	Public
Mood:	hyper
Music:	nada.

THAT IS THE QUESTION!

Click the link in the Subject section


I swear, it looks like if some other guy posed for the NipTuck picture. It was all before they cut off his head and inserted Mario Lopez's head instead. Or maybe it's actually real. If it is, allow me to say this: he needs to work out with the other parts of his body. You seriously don't want to have a big body and a small head. You don't want to look like Jon Basedow. The guy had a small head.


Time for an embarrassing disclaimer! I am not a fan of Mario Lopez or NipTuck. I wanted to compare Mario's looks to that of some Puerto Rican singer (Chayanne, a singer my mother listens to). I Googled his name, and found that one pic among the others. Where did I hear about Mario? Oh, that's simple: VH1's Best Week Ever!

Date:	2007-05-31 15:10
Subject:	Done.
Security:	Public
Mood:	moody
Music:	iPod

I finished school today. :)

Date:	2007-05-23 18:11
Subject:	Apologies
Security:	Public
Mood:	refreshed
Music:	iPod

Recently, my LiveJournal has hardly received any public updates. Well, I didn't have much to write about anyway. I felt quite low and uninspired.

Then, I lost my Internet connection on 11 May. I had the Internet in my grandparents' house for the weekend, and that was good. But my house still didn't have Internet. I didn't get it until I called the company today. They helped me reset it with the modem. I didn't want to do it, because I like taking a few breaks from the Internet. My dad was complaining about not having online access; he needed it. He told me to call the company yesterday--for the second time. The problem was that I didn't know some of the information needed for the call. My mother said she would help me here and there, but we didn't do it. He had to say, "You want other people can do things for you?" It was quite silly, since I was planning to do the major parts myself, like talking to the people on the Customer Service line.

I told her about the complain from yesterday, and we actually did it. So, no more complaining! It annoys me anyway.

The break was worth it. I feel more inspired now. Oh! I finally got my school yearbook on Monday. I was looking forward to it; I want to draw pictures/portraits of beautiful people. If you like aesthetics, you might find some aesthetic beauty in some people. I also have assignments that needed to be completed.

My finals start tomorrow. :/ The good part is that I have no school on Friday (Senior Graduation) and on Monday (Memorial Day, duh!). I then finish school on 31 May.

I might send more comments and entries tomorrow. That is when I will have more time to do those things.

EDIT: I guess the inspiration thing changed me a little. I just realised that most popular devART deviations are really bad. Many of them inspired me weeks ago, but the bad anime has gotten old.

Date:	2007-05-06 13:31
Subject:	Go!
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	nothing

Come on, come on! Move, move, move; run; run; run! There is something out there for you.

Ugh! If only my weekends were like that. There are too many boundaries out there. Seriously, the Internet has some cool people. If only this was the actual world, instead of cyberspace. Everything would be more exciting.

Date:	2007-04-27 16:34
Subject:	Update!
Security:	Public
Mood:	okay
Music:	iPod

The week was fine and mundane. My mother's birthday was yesterday, and I bought her a gift. It was a surprise. I told her that I didn't have a gift for her. I usually have that excuse, since I'm forgetful. This time, I did have one, and it was hidden. I bought it last Saturday. We were at the mall, and I bought two periodicals. No books; I have too many books. I didn't really want anything else, so I decided to buy my mother a gift, just because. I wasn't thinking of her birthday at that time. I just wanted to give her a gift for no reason. It took me a short while to realise that her birthday was only a few days away. I'm glad I was still at the mall at that time. I bought her gift, before hiding the bag with a bigger bag. The bag was see-through, so I had to cuddle it.

After getting the gift out of the bigger bag, I kept its actual bag in my room, until yesterday. First, I gave her a card I made in a few minutes. My grandmother gave me a set of cards she received from some charity. My mom did want one of those cards, so I used one. I wrote an inside joke, and I gave it to her from my room. I waited for her to leave, before telling her to hold on. Some person left a gift for me to give to her. Hah--lies! I was that gift I bought her a few days ago. She was ecstatic. It was a shirt from her favourite store.

After that, I told her the "interesting" story about me buying and hiding her surprise.

Off-topic: INCEST? IS THAT INCEST?! D: Why is that popular?

Uhh...hi. :D

Better update coming soon (most likely tomorrow).

Date:	2007-04-14 17:37
Subject:	Rainbow Revelations
Security:	Public
Mood:	silly

Rainbow Revelations

Just listen and laugh.


This is one of the reasons why we love innuendo.

Date:	2007-04-08 17:07
Subject:	HOH, JESUS!
Security:	Public
Mood:	indifferent
Music:	iPod

Why, why, why did I write that title? Well, today is Easter, where Christians celebrate Jesus' resurrection. I watched the new South Park episode last Wednesday, and I wondered, "Really, why do we colour eggs?" Now that I think of it, it might be pagan. Cultures always copy one another. It's a human thing!

In case you were wondering, no, I did not colour eggs. I do not care for those things anyway.

Before logging on yesterday, I have been off for roughly five days. On Tuesday, I had work to do. On Wednesday, I didn't feel like going on. I also had to pack up before leaving. I wanted to spend my time here with grandparents and other relatives. On Thursday, Friday, and parts of Saturday, I couldn't go on. My brother was grounded for getting a bad grade in some class (most likely Literature, because that's what I heard). That means that he couldn't play Maple Story.

The good news is that my Spring Break is longer than the typical break. Mine started last Thursday. I supposedly have last Thursday, last Friday, and this whole week off. EDIT: The public schools also had the spring break last week. My school (or the archdiocese) likes to start this week. My school is not public, and its system can do its own thing.

I was actually thinking of things during my time off. I need to make more rants. I know; they get tiresome. Don't assume that I never feel the same way. I can also get quite tired of some rants, especially political rants. I am also planning to paint a picture on my brother and father's laptop. I have Photoshop Elements and Corel Painter Essentials installed here. At least it's better than my Photoshop 7. It constantly freezes every time I make a big blob of paint in my "canvas."

Check out the new userpic. I posted it last week. I know rubywaves and preppsterr will recognise the character. I've been thinking of making Time Squad userpics for a while. Thanks to YouTube and Photoshop, I was able to make a few last Sunday. I only posted this one, since it's quite funny. I have to choose wisely, because I can only have six userpics. No, I will not get a Plus account. Ads frustrate me.

So, how was your Spring Break?

Date:	2007-04-01 11:48
Subject:	April Fools Day
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm

I think devART fooled us with their news. Gah, I hate April Fools Day, along with Valentine's Day, Christmas, Halloween, Easter; you get the point. I'm not a holiday person, unless it's New Year's, 4th of July, or my birthday.

I always say this on holidays! XD

I have a paper due tomorrow. I already started on it, but I have to do the important parts today. I get lazy. Don't worry! These papers don't take that long to type. I guess that was why I was not tense a few hours ago. It was assigned last week, and I did forget about it a few times. I had other things to do. It's sad, really. I don't really get anything good in return. Just more and more work.

Date:	2007-03-30 19:48
Subject:	Stuff
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	Billy and Mandy on TV

I need to make a new public entry.

Life is fine, I guess. I'm not getting very detailed here. I don't feel like making a longer post. I do have my bad moments, but this is not the right time to talk about it.

Anyway, hi. I'm pretty; you're pretty; we're all pretty. Mind the random remark. I just had to say something stupid, even if I'm not very fond of random jokes. If you say, "I LIKE EGGS!" one more time, I'll go crazy. Sure, it's not a very common thing to say, but it's still dumb. :/

Spring Break does not start for me until next week. My school is Catholic and they like to start our vacation on Good Friday. They call it Easter Break, because they're like that. Whatever.

Bye.

Date:	2007-03-15 18:03
Subject:	Weekend, yo!
Security:	Public
Mood:	quite productive.
Music:	iPod

I bought a notebook from the supermarket on Sunday. I really needed one, since I constantly write journals during school. I cannot waste paper. Like always, partd of my blog entry will come from the notebook itself.

Anyway, beware of the Ides of March! This was the day when Julius Caesar was stabbed and killed.

I don't have school tomorrow. Neither does preppsterr (my cousin). I guess it's because the third school quarter is ending. My school's sophomores are also going on a trip to Universal Studios in Orlando. I'm not going. I hardly have friends and the trip didn't interest me.

Today is the day The Showbiz Show with David Spade starts with its third season on Comedy Central. I love that show! It has David Spade basically making fun of Hollywood and its celebrities. This is really worth watching. I swear! I hope he uses those celebrity action figures again. Sometimes, he would create scenes involving celebrities, like Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes, and execute a dialogue with action figures resembling them. Oh, please, please, please! I must hear another K-Fed joke. Those are even better.

Okay, sorry for the "spoiler." I really enjoy that show. I really missed it.


Another thing:
I admire this. Read the journal. This shows how the police can be so unfair to innocent people.

Date:	2007-03-11 16:25
Subject:	Tim Gunn Says:
Security:	Public
Mood:	boo, emo blob.

Tim Gunn says: "Project Runway is like cilantro."

Ahaha! I love my new userpic. Tim Gunn is very kewl! The funny part is that I'm not very fond of cilantro. The smell is a bit too strong for me. I hated it when my parents put it on a dish. Why is it that I usually make journals about my userpics? It's just like the Mr. Peabody icon. I also dedicated an entry to it. I'm so pathetic!

Date:	2007-03-04 17:37
Subject:	What to post?
Security:	Public
Mood:	discontent
Music:	iTunes

I'm falling in love with LJ. You just get to be! I can write about my life and my preferences. It's very beautiful. I feel beautiful. Oh, and I just added a new icon. It's actually a pic of myself. Ha!

My laptop is going slow. I guess I do have a whole lot of crap stored in my memory, along with those stupid worms. The laptop is also getting old. I've had it for four years. I will get a new one sooner or later. It will be a nice Mac. I should try those babies. I've had PCs my whole life. I also have interest in graphics and digital art. Macs are supposedly better with graphics and music, while the PCs are better with games and business programmes.

I've been reading stuff from members of a community I belong to, and I agree with them. It's sad to find ignorance, especially from those who are similar to you. People just like to say stupid things about those who are different from them.

Phonies...I just want to tear them apart. Always pretending to be something you are not! Stop screwing with those who are real.

I'm planning to buy a journal soon. I need one. I can't waste sheets of paper in school. What if I need them? Exactly.

I should really take writing and journalism into consideration. Writing and typing is a fun hobby. I don't want to write fictional stories; rants and other opinionated things are better with me. I also want to draw. That is the primary thing, though I'm more critical with my drawings. I also get too lazy. I guess it's always easier to do something that is not a passion, like writing. Anyway, I did draw on my sketchbook. I also drew and coloured a drawing of a plasma screen TV. I did use a printed reference for my drawing, because I needed to get an idea. I did pretty well with the Prismacolor coloured pencils. In my opinion, I did pretty well with the shading and the light source.

Well, that's it for now. I have homework, which is something I hate. It's so pointless. Either I already know the stuff or I don't care about the subject. I also have a paper about the Renaissance. I have to write about someone who made contributions to that period. Should I write about Leonardo da Vinci or Michelangelo Buonarroti? I'd prefer da Vinci. He's my hero, but I'm assuming that a ton of people also want to write about him. It would be tiring for a teacher to read about the same guy over and over again. Oh well!

Date:	2007-02-19 13:30
Subject:	One More Dedication
Security:	Public
Mood:	giddy

This is for those who like Naruto, or like plain crazy things.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r9zBw2irj4I&NR
I was laughing.

Date:	2007-02-17 11:22
Subject:	Pretty Cool Idea
Security:	Public
Mood:	why not?

Thursday was quite interesting. I was looking for Greek letters during my computer class (first period). I wrote about an idea I had for a while. It was good to release it. I'm planning to make a community on dA, LJ, and last.fm, if anyone really wants to join.

Here are more of the details.

I am planning to create a community for those with real minds. Today, our education facilities constantly honour students only for grades, rankings, and extracurricular actions. Along with this blindness, other people start labelling those students as intelligent.

My question is this: is that really true? Is it really true that those who follow a corrupted education system are intelligent? Oh, how naïve! There is more to intelligence than the rubbish seen in schools and colleges.

Because of Honor Societies, I thought about a new creation. In my high school freshman year, I discovered Phi Beta Chi, the school's Science Honor Society. It was quite ridiculous to find a science group centred on bake sales and canned food drives. My younger mind preferred a group for scientific thinking. Why have more drives, when there were countless clubs for this?

Science and humane thought in general deserves more. They should not receive the blind and "prestigious" contents from other groups.

As a sophomore, I came up with B.R.A.I.N.S. (The Beta Rho Alpha Insipid Not-so-honourable Society). The Greek part is a parody of honour societies, fraternities, and sororities. Funny or not, Greek letters deserve true intelligence, basically people who think outside of the box. The rest of it is quasi satirical. How can you find honour in a casual community made by a sixteen-year old? We are too bad to be good.

I would like to end this with a humble suggestion: enjoy your mind and don't take our title seriously. We are still the real minds in this world. If we suck, then you suck.

Your friend,
A.M. Clear

/end

Now for some apologies.
1) I know, I know! I suck at jokes. If you can fix anything, you are more than welcome to do so.
2) The teacher in charge of the school's Science Honor Society is a very nice person. It is good to keep in mind that I'm only trying to criticise the group itself. Bah, why am I writing this part? I do have loads of respect for some people, but I'm not much of a suck-up anyway.

Date:	2007-02-14 17:17
Subject:	Happy Valentine's Day
Security:	Public
Mood:	DAMN YOU!
Music:	my anger at LJ

Blah. Sorry buddies, but I can't post a longer entry. It seems that LJ is currently having a few problems. I hope this doesn't happen tomorrow. I do love long entries. :3 Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day. I'm actually having a good time, even though I dislike this holiday. I ate chocolates and wrote a rant. How cool is that? I also wished a happy day to my family, online and offline.

Today is my sister's birthday. She will turn two this year. We will not do anything today, because we threw the party on Saturday.

Date:	2007-02-11 14:58
Subject:	ihateschool.com
Security:	Public
Mood:	my star's a crybaby!
Music:	the thoughts in my head

I'm a bit too playful with the journal's title. It's good, since my titles tend to be boring.:P

I usually feel fine writing journals. You're basically pouring out parts of your soul into this. Now, it's a bit weird, because I haven't made an update in a while. I guess my brain became a bit mushy after a not so long hiatus (if you like to name it that way).

With this and a few other entries, you can tell that I despise school. I don't like the system, the students, the homework, the standardised tests, the SAT/ACT, the otakus, the wankstas, the sluts, the so-called geniuses, the laziness, the repetition, the typical straight-A kids, you name it. School is a joke. It's a place where both students and teachers are pushed around by the mindless. It is a waste of my time. Sure, I do love learning, but school does not give me that. If it does, then the majority of it is not essential to plain knowledge and intelligence.

I want to drop out of high school (haha....typing this was like telling a deep dark secret to a loved one XD). I want to take the GED and start college early. I am assuming that college may be the same stupid thing, but it gives you more options. That is good enough for me. I just want to learn outside this idiotic high school ambience. Unfortunately, some people misunderstood me and believed that I wanted to take the SAS thing. No, even I made a few mistakes. I thought that SAS was high school minus the actual high school and the teenage drama. What I didn't realise was that it's actually something that goes ALONG with your high school studies. It's like overfeeding the overachiever with unnecessary food. I don't want that! High school is already a burden. I don't need to add "smarty" crap to another nuisance. I care more about freedom and passion than good transcripts.

It's sad when people don't know what you mean. This is what I get for constanly getting straight A's in school (for your information, grades don't make you smart). Many adults might agree with me, but they have been brainwashed by this system. hfjkdhfkjdjfesjfksdjfejf....it frustrates me. They are not creative. They're like, "Oh, but you need to finish high school." "You're gonna be poor." "You're turning your life into shit." Whatever happened to a better way of thinking?

It gets worse. If I go to college, my parents STILL have to waste money. They're already wasting money in a Catholic school. Not only am I fickle with people and schooling, but I do know that college can also be a waste of time. So paying high bucks for it would be ridiculous. I feel sorry for my parents. They don't deserve to be deceived by those who don't give a rat's arse about true and good education. They themselves may be deceivers, but they never deserve this. They are not corporations; they are parents and hard workers. Exactly! The target for the money-hungry monsters. My parents constanly waste money for me. I hate it. I hate everything. I hate my idiocy. I hate their idiocy.

My god, I'm moving to Europe. Before I leave, I would be more than happy to contribute to those who are oppressed. I would give my money to charity and many other organisations. They need me! It is dumb to just escape and do absolutely nothing about the situtaion you and other people have. By the way, what does this have to do with the subject?! Oh yeah! I was mentioning the fact that I want to move. But I still have to give a piece of myself in the US, before making a move that could become stupid.

It's EVEN HARDER to leave this country. I can't. I need to meet countless requirements, do some stuff, grow up, etc., etc., etc. If I leave, will I still be the same? Maybe, maybe not. I do change. I used to be nostalgic and quite idealistic in my pre-teen/young teen years. Things sucked, and I always wished for something good to appear or for everything to go back to the way it was. Now I am more realistic. I don't wish for old memories. I no longer cry about pain. Anything bad can be welcomed. I'm getting used to it. Because of this, slight feelings of emptiness is no longer a big thing to me.

My mother brought another idea. She said I should move with my father and attend the school my cousin goes to. It might help, though everyone is fully aware of my cynicism and scepticim about high school. I could hate it, just like I hated other schools.

I don't know. I don't know anymore. Should I still live a trapped schooling life or do the daring thing? I don't know. People are so bland. No one encourages a twist in a teenager.